Yes. This post is going to be one of “those” posts. A post where a single 21-year-old goes on about her love life, or lack there of. But! Do not worry. It will not be a post of me feeling sorry for myself. Although, it might seem like it will be going in that direction, but I promise, I do not feel sorry for myself.Let me begin by stating that I have not written a new post in way too long. I think it was either October or November since my last post, which is horrible and I’m sorry.But anyways…There are a lot of things that I wish I could write out at the moment, however I’m not going to because they are just way too personal for the internet/they’re things that God’s told me and I’m not really sure if I should be sharing them here. However, they are really awesome things! I will say they are things about my future and my future husband. They’re really exciting things but also oh my goodness scary things. When that time comes, I will for sure share with the world these things, but not yet. To make this relevant, the past couple of days I have just really been longing to be in a relationship. Which makes me want to kick myself in the face because considering every other single girl in the world…every other single college girl in the world who feels like she needs a man to have a purpose (sorry if this is offensive, I’m not trying to be) I don’t feel like that and I am so in love with Jesus and I know that He is the only one in all eternity who will make me feel whole and give me a purpose and life and just everything, because Jesus is so amazing and I love Him and no one will ever be able to take that away, but lately I have been feeling a little lonely and just really longing to have a relationship. I don’t know if I necessarily want to be married right now, I mean it would be nice for reasons that I will not put on my blog because people that know me may read this….or not know me…. and because I would love to be able to watch tv and be boring with my best friend and at the end of the night he doesn’t have to go home, but can stay and do all the fun married stuff that I have in my head that makes my idea of marriage a high expectation…… but in reality, I just really want him. I want that best friend who you’re also in love with and you can just watch tv and do nothing, but you always have each other to hang out with, and to feel comfortable with and even if you’re not having such a great day with each other, you both love Jesus and the bible says to not go to sleep mad at each other so you work it out (see high expectations/this sound be real/I’m praying for a great relationship and an awesome special someone). I also can’t wait to work together and serve God together. I want to travel the world with someone and tell people about Jesus with them too. I want to be a helper and an encourager. I want to be used in the Kingdom of God with him, and serve Jesus and make His name known and famous with him. Maybe I’m just a sappy hopeless romantic, and people can make fun of me or laugh at me, but I do believe that God has made someone who will be a sappy hopeless romantic with me so we can go on sappy hopeless romantic dates and then laugh at each other because we’re so strange and sappy.So. In all of that, this is my problem. I feel horrible for feeling like this. I feel like shouldn’t I be putting all my attention on God? I don’t want to be wrapped up in a romantic way and be all “I’m single and I have no life. Forever alone!” I want to love Jesus and be content with Him and then if it’s God’s will I’ll just look up one day and be like “Oh hey! It’s you!” and not always on the look out for Mr. Awesome. But thinking about it, I don’t think I am like that. I have my moments, like right now. But even then , I’m not throwing myself a pity party. I’m just having a desire to be with someone God’s going to put in my life so we can serve God together and live out the example that God gave us to how we are to be with Him.I’m sure even Adam felt alone. After he saw that all the animals had someone who were like them, don’t you think that he felt alone too? And then when he saw Eve, wouldn’t you think that he would’ve been so thrilled to finally have the woman? The person that God made just for him? I know that I’m sappy, but so is God! He wrote this stuff!This is why I love the story of Adam and Eve so much. Because when God made Adam, He didn’t make Eve right away. He made her later, after God saw that Adam was alone. The bible doesn’t say, (I like to think it’s because Moses wrote the first few books of the bible and if God had Moses’ wife write it, I’m sure we would’ve known this but hey. That’s okay!) but who knows how long Adam was living with just him and God? Adam probably had so much time to live with God and to know Him and love Him and serve Him. Then when God saw that it was time, only then did He put Adam to sleep and make Eve from his rib (which is totally a different thought, but I love how she was made from his rib, like she’s his wing [wo]man (see what I did there?) or like, she was suppose to be on his side and support him and work with him….. ha. ha. ….oh God’s awesome…) and gave Adam, Eve and they became one.Call me sappy, but I’d rather wait on God then rush something and not have God’s best. I’d rather sit at home on a Friday night while everyone else is out on dates and wait for God’s best. I think that’s the difference though. Even though I have my moods, I know that God is better. He is better then my future husband, and even though I will love my husband, there’s no one who I will love more then my God. I will wait on Him. Because I want His best.